So many empty promises

filled with such fake sincerity

have lead me to lose faith,

faith in what was once a friendship.

At no time did I expect

anything nor did I once

take anything for granted.

Your cowardice now speaks the truth.

Inside your gentle exterior is such

a cold and mean lifeless heart.

Leading me down the garden

trail to what you knew was a dead end.

Giver of false hope, provider

of emptiness and disappointment.

You have cut me far deeper

then any pain I had felt

.Such an insincere and uncaring

soul, you do not realize the dire

consequences of your thoughtless actions.

Such knavery and treachery beyond belief.

You have sold out your friend and your integrity,

Such disloyalty and heartless betrayal.

One cannot believe the perfidiousness which you

have displayed

.My trust in you, you took

away by your own hand.

A new middle name you have given yourself

which all understand - Judas.

Insidiousness is too nice a word for the harm you brought and

disloyalty is something younow are a master at

i m happy that things are going the way they should

or at least for nw

i realised that having anger and revenge in one's self

can really be tiring

and it can really suck the energy out of the person....

well i m finally over the hate and nw i m a love type of person

i actualli m happier in the enviroment that i m working

and everybody is also happy so......

i m like so bored at the moment

i finsihed what i m suppose to do

juz waiting for someone to buy lunch

since i m so hungry and i dun feel like going out to buy food

will update later

may all of u have a nice day

god bless

i had the most happiest day and the most fun

i tot i was going to get my cramps last night

but thankfully i didn't

cuz if i did i would have asked my mum to lay nxt to me

until i fall asleep

i noe i sound so childis

but i have always been lyke this

aniway i woke up at 5.45 in the morning and gt readi for work

i ate wanton noodles and MAGNUM ice-cream

i was lyke a pig

lyke less tha 1 hr after eating lunch

and guess who's hungry again

well gotta go hit the sack now

ciao

well i am now at home chilling

everybody's all at home

i don't noe why

but mum has been giving mi "THE LOOK"

ever since last week

and not knowing y is the hardest

my goodness y cnt mothers be straight forward

i mean it would make a hell of a lot of difference

well aniways

landon bought macs for all of us

and paid with his credit card

cuz we were like super hungry

well thats all

well just came home from a great outing with hanis and nizam

well the plan was for mi and hanis to meet at 2.30

but since my bro wanted to treat me and his friend pastamania

so i changed the plan to meeting at 2.45

den hanis said make it at three

so ok.....

after pastamanis i rushed back home gt changed and left

to meet hanis at her house bus stop

after that we to 155 to toa payoh

den as i was walking out of the bus my heel gt stuck

luckily i got it out befor ani1 saw

so from toa payoh we made our way to orchard

frm dere we meet up with nizam

den heade for coffee bean at the forum

chilled and watch the cars go by

den we wanted to head to far east but decided against it

so we walked all the way to plaza singapura

with my heels

and when we reached there it was so damn nice to sit

chill and let my legs breathe

then at abt 8.40 we walked to the bus stop i took my 36

and to my surprise it was so empty

and it was a half an hour journey back home

well here are some pics

mi and hanis

nizam....looking stoned

i am now in the office

and it's almost 9 am

well the upstairs in the office is pretty much quite

but the rest of t he guys downstairs are looking after

and becoming the office security guard

well stayed home last night

painted ma nails while watchin'g

it was so touching

well and their house is so nice

well i actually just chilled at home

and had an early night

well no such thing is going to happen today

cuz i m going to have fun

well update later

byes

well thse pass couple of days have been great

after my blow up

eveybody seems to be thinking more than juz shooting

i mean i cnt exactly blame myself for what happen

i mean i asked u a question and u dun wanna give a straight answer i cnt say anything........

u had that comming

well i m gonna stay home on a friday night

as i m really tired of everything

argh!!!!!!!

well nevermind i'll be heading to town on saturday with who else

so shld be fun......

well i m juz dropping an update cuz i juz finish changing my layout

it was nice

well everything has been moving so fast even time

in a blink of an eye it's march ready

well....in the office

everybody's changed

well i m happy....

so all those unhappy asses pls stay away.....

and juz smile

it's a beautiful day even if life does'n't go they way u want it to

juz be happy u live another day

well today was so damn fun and happy.....

i got up at lyke 5.45 with the intention of attending the

6.30 am mass

but by the time i left the house it was oreadi 6.20

so i tot ok....

shld be able to get a cab to church

in the end i walked from my house all the way to Siglap Hill and

didn't go for mass....

i sat down at the fountain and said my prayer den i relaxed there

until abt 7.05 wen i call mum

den mum came to pick mi up

i had the most peaceful time and walked in my life

cuz eventough i had my mp3 with mi

i decided not to use my mp3

since it was so nice ans peaceful

so in the later part of the day i had to werk with people

who are backstabbers so i did get pissed off....

and shouted at "her" cuz to me that's the way i am if "she" aint happy

she knows where the door is.....

den i was so stressed out that i left i walked in the rain

and upon reaching the main road....

i felt lost

i have never experienced that type of feeling before in my life

and i was so sacred that i hailed for a cab and cabbed down to Katong

to get lunch

after buying lunch i gt a cab and cabbed back to office

thank god landon was in the office.........

after lunch i followed dad to the bank

den came back to office

chilled with daddy in his office

den at abt 5.15

left and headed home

well now i know ur true colours

here's a quote i lived by today

why must you be such a biatch....

first you go looking for sympathy

den all of a sudden we all noe you ask for him back???

den u come up with another story

my goodness now you act as if you've known ppl

i've known my whole life more than i do.....

i juz hate you so much

that when i look at you all i can do is to call you

an ass......

you tink we don't noe you

you talk and bitch abt other ppl behind their back

you 2-headed snake

my goodness...

i realise that my judgement abt u guys are wrong

u r juzt the same like "him"

at least he is better den you.....

u people are useless and all u guys noe is juz to bitch abt other ppl

but when they are in front of u

u act so damn dumb it aint even true

wow.....

who knew......u were like that

well june's ard tha corner

i cnt wait to get as far as possible frm you......

meet martha juz nw at abt 2.30 the original plan

was to head down to town for abit

so ok but after my shower i realise that

i was too lazy to go to town

so me and martha decided to go to siglap instead

and since i haven't had lunch

i was farmished

upon reaching siglap centre

i decide i had a craving for kfc den hagen'daz

but while walking i saw cafe cartel

so i wanted to eat there

since it's been a long time since i last ate there

so me and matha sat inside since it was hot outside

and ordered the beef lagsana and iced tea

while martha had the waffles and ice cream + maple syrup+ peach tea

delito.....

but martha cldnt finish her waffles so she gave me some

after that we were both full

so we decided to walk to siglap centre

we went to watsons to get our stuff

den to cold storage

where martha gt m&m's

from there we walked home

chilled at the swimming pool and finished to m&m's

and still had time for cam-whoring

den came upstairs and now i m so full

and i feel like i ate a horse..

well thats all

TCHAU

well i juz came home frm chilling with hanis

we meat at 5.30 at Tanjong Katong Complex

den headed to city plaza to get my minature perfumes

which i gT

den we walked to paya lebar

took the train to bugis den we first had dinner at

i had beef bolongnaise while hanis had the seafood something

i was really worth every penny

den i went to get my

CAROLINA HERRARA (212) minature

den we shopped for like earings and shades

and a hole lotta of other stuff

den at ard 9 we left and took the buz home

it's been a terribly tired day

since ma legs and muscles hurt

since the fall yesterdae

due to the wire at the staircase

climbing up and down the stair in the office.....

while i had so much fun today

hope tomorrow will be juzt as fun....

since we'll be going to the beach

and i m agoing to repair ma phone

well i shall end here

well currently at home chilling

had a reali long day today

and a very tiring one also

so well ma day started out pretty good

with a few exceptions
other den that it was normally

had to go to the bank with dad

after dat went for lunch with dad

den headed back to office

den completed everything that i need to get done

den at ard 4.45 landon came back den he waited till 5++

den he sent mi home

otw home we had a fun chat abt alotta stuff

some inside joke

well we were like laughing like idiots

in the car.....i tink ppl tot we were crazy

den wen we turn into the siglap exit

we saw this guy and gerl smooching

itchy finger landon wen to horn and ask dem to get a room

like hello!!!!!!

he kept horning and horning

till the traffic light

i was like OMG

landon way u doing

and den he juz laughed

so we laughed it off

den i said bye to him

well thats all...

gotta go

CIAO

well i m lyke so bored at home

gt up early after 10 hrs of sleep

so refreshing....

gt dress and went to church wib mum

den after dat had to go to d office to get

dads medication

den headed home did ma laundry

now juz waiting for ma jeans and all

in the washing machine

so today's so relaxing

and

yet tomorrow is monday

y does time pass so fast wen we're having

well it's onli me mum and dad

at home

so i m gonna go clean my room later

or mums gonna start wib her

lectures and nagging

which i cant stand

well

before i go i wanna give a shout-out to

my best and dearest friend

hopeu have a blessed year ahead of u

u'll get ur present the next time i see u

Luv ya

wish i could make it today

but ma body wasn't working with mi

well see ya soon

tanning dates as usual

well

well stayed at home the whole day today

it was juz so relaxing

i slpt while watching tv.....

since my whole week's sleep has been

no wonder i get angry easily and

stress easily too

well aniways

haven't had dinner yet

m nt sure wat to eat

and at the same time don't feel like eating

well tml's sunday

gotta get up early to go to church

sometimes i wonder

someone will come and spoil it or screw it up????
i m trying so hard to be the best i can but

sometimes ma best aint't enough

everybody's at my throat

i m such an evil bitch that

people wanna to hurt mi so much?????

well gotta go.....

well i juz got home from bugis with hanis and her cuzin WANI

i tell u it was so great.....

we three had so much fun

my intial plan was to meet YANTIE

but later on i cancelled since i wanted to tag along wib hanis

so at ard 4.45 i started getting readi when i actualli finish werk at 5

but hanis had to drop by ma place to get ma make up bag

cuz smart-ass mi 4got to bring it

so i asked hanis if she could get it for mi

so she said she could

den i met hanis at abt 5.30

i was waiting for her at the bustop

but wen she came dwn frm the bus she walked to my office

i called and shouted her name finally she realised that i was behind her

den we walked t0 CITY PLAZA

went to the toilet

then headed to tanjong katong complex's 7 -11

after 7-11 went headed to paya lebar MRT station

den we headed to bugis

gt tops frm DOROTHY PERKINS again!!!!!!

den while waiting for hanis cousin we had gelatto

and we took pics

since it' hanis sisters b-dae todae

hanis and her cousins chipped in to get for hanis sis HUGO BOSS perfume

den we went bag hunting

i bought 3 new pairs of earings

den we headed for banquet chilled dere till abt 10+++

Den it was home sweet home

here are some pics

i shall end this entry here

well it's been a great day so far

kinda tired after last night

but another 2 hrs and 9 mins left

kinda bored in the office

but i m happi cuz i gt to eat ice-cream from macs

well gotta go

still thinking abt alotta stuff dats happening

dun noe y mux get ma head straight

update later wen i more available

well juz came home frm a great and happy time wib hanis

meet hanis at ard 6++ at my bustop

den we headed for the swimming pool

chilled, became cam-whores

and juz relaxed

until abt 7+8 den we

changed and headed for KFC at Siglap

at at abt 9+

we left and

i sent hanis to the bustop and waited for the bus wib her since

ma smart ass fren didnt bring her glasses and didnt use

her contact lenses

so after she boarded the bus

i walked home...

the minute i gt home i had a bath

nw i m going off to LALA land (yawns)

well today has been so great

i m lyke 1 crazi woman

in d office....

had macs for breakfast and lunch

den i came to office really early

since dad was cumming in early

so decided to ride in wib him

everybodi was surprised to see that ma dad actualli came in early

cuz normalli ma dad would come in ard 10+ 11

so d day started off well and i m meeting up wib hanis later

gonna go for a dip since ma pool's balancing tank has been repaired...

well update ya'll later

tatas

well let's see
staurdae was boring.
since d minute i stepped into the hse
after werk i went crashing on ma bed
and didnt wake up till 7++....
wen i went out into the hall
ma mum asked if i wanted to go to IKEA
so i gt changed and we left
it seems like IKEA and everywhere else were packed
so we gt wat we needed and left

moving on to
SUNDAY

well i gt up at 7 went on d comp 4 a wile den headed for the shower

after dat i gt dresses and left for church wib ma sister

after church we went to parkwae

i waited for mum

den we went shopping

and for lunch

den headed to office

since dad was in d office

and we left for home at ard 6+++

at home since i had a craving for cheese cake

mum maid it for me and i helped

cnt wait to go home and eat it....

well dats all

well had a very happy outing last night

met hanis at ard 5.30 @ city plaza,

cuz i wanted to get the minature perfume

i got the ESCADE ISLAND KISS

while hanis gt the ESCADE ROCKIN RIO

den walked to paya lebar

while walking pass this bustop we saw 3 cats

all spread out on all the 3 benches....

hanis took a picture but dun noe wat happen it aint in ma phone

well upon reaching paya lebar i went to top-up ma ezlink card $20

den we took d train to bugis where the outing gt more interesting

we went to siemens to see if her phone was readi

since it's already been a month

but to her disappointment her phone wasnt readi....

so after dat we went to eat delifrance

delifrance was lyke so empty

dat both mi and hanis was lyke laughing like crzy womans

but hu cares.......

after dinner we were walking ard den

we went to seiyu to look at dorothy perkins

we bought tops from dere

and they were having HUGO BOSS PURPLE perfume roadshow dere

so obviously were gt samples

den after dat hansi msged d guy Iskandar wich she was originally suppose to meet, the mi him and hanis were lyke in d middle of seiyu's entrances talking and laughing

n i was called a clown and a joker

like WTF!!!!!

well nevermind

after dat i saw ma other co-workers which dey asked mi to like treat them starbucks

i was like u guys juz gt paid!!!!!!

after dat mi n hanis went to get gelato....

after dat we headed to bugis village

where i bought a top and 2 kewl earings

well we were actualli too busy to take pics

well dats all

aniways

hope u guys enjoyed reading

i m so happy

well today is juz d same lyke yesterdae

so nth much to comment will wait till

wen i m actualli feeling better

werk has becum a drag

due to alot of stuff happening in d office

i juz realli need to get outta here

hope i get into the course that i want

so i can be long gone from here

it's juz so fustrating

well wat to do.....

some ppl think they own me

looking at mi lyke

they tink they are better then mi

go to hell la.......

if u dun lyke it

u noe where the door is

well sorie ppl juz had to vent ma anger.....

the pass couple of days has been so stressful and tiring.....

currently still sick....

and ma friend is here
y do i have to get sick??????

we were talking abt it juz nw during lunch

since he'll be sending mi home

as he noes i'm feeling lyke crap

i woke up happi todae

den wen i walked into d office i was in a very foul and bad mood

and i aint talkin to ani1

cuz i dun wanna explode on them.....

it aint all ma fault

it's juz life aint going the way i want it to

and everybody's getting on ma nerves

and i hate it wen ppl follow or crowd ard mi

and it's reali fustrating

had a realli long talk wib landon(ma cuzin)

yesterdae wen he was sending mi home

he was advising mi on some stuff

which most of it is true

so .....

i tink i m gonna lay low for a while

at least till i get ma head on straight.....

well till nxt time