true friends

what does it mean?

in my opinion it means having someone to talk about anything and eveything under the sun with

not having to be shy or curious if they're gonna laugh at you,

and it matters what we have to say and our opinions.

some friends come and go,but some stick by us even through the toughest time and helps us conquer everything,our fears,and for me especially means that even if i was in my boxers or something ,that when my friend need me i am there for them,when they hurt i join them so as not to let them feel alone!

i have even heard of friends that are friends just to hurt each other

yet i have seen some that the bond the share can and will never be broken

a few days ago i experience something so wonderful yet a very well taught lesson

a friend was in need and and hurt by her other friends

what i wanna know is why be friends and hurt the other person?

i have experience friends who lied for their benefit,batrayed me,and do all shit to me for fun and cause they feel like it

yet when i found a new friend

i was blown away by what it meant to be real and how amazing it is to just be myslef around her

the DORKY AND NERDY BUM that i am!hee!

this friend that i truly treasure has said told me thing i need to know straight to my face

and we both have mostly experience things at the same time!and i love her after all the tiff and i am hope many more to come!it'll make our bond more treasured and stronger!

what else can i ask for!
god himslf blessed me and plan for me to meet u even thru friendster!heheh!

but ur the best and stable thing in my life!!!

thank you

SOU-PER-STAR!

grettings from school

so now i am suppose to be having Costing Class

but guess what we aren't

*shouts out loud*

i am bored in class and i have to stay in school until 4

total bummer!!!!

so ok i am kinda stoning at this present moment and hanis is sitting beside me

showing me pictures of Doughnuts

*slaps forehead*

well ok thats all till i go home and stone ok

byes!!!

so these days have been going pass so quick thats not true

soon it'll be August and then Spetember

so far my journery this year has a been great even though i have had some hard time

but rarely show it i pulled away from my friends in school

i just kept to myself mostly

there was even once where i barely spoke a word to people

i was frightened,not knowing who to trust,who to listen to

then it hit me

i had friends which was going throught the same thing as me

so we both fought eveything we had to make it through

and i must say that it really helped our friendship

so ya,my journey so far

i m majorly excited as my birthday is nearing eventhoug it is in december hahahahh!!!

well right now i am happy with my life and my friends rocks!

here are the pictures

the bestie

the bestie and cousin

me and Jon Heng

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me and Sharr

my life

Souher

greetings.

so i hung out with souher,bird,martha,john heng,souhers cousin and birds other friends

we chilled at OG Starbuck which was totally to die for!

then we walked around ate at Long John and then more walking

me and John Heng cabbed over to my place chilled then Kenji and Jason came over a while later

then we headed to Pattaya marcus came and then we chilled till 2 then went our seperate ways!

TODAY i chilled in church from 3 till about 7 then went o Al-ameen had dinner then went back to church chilled for a while more then headed home!!

thats all

pictures will be posted

This is a song that has alot of meaning to me and the way i felt for a long time before i let it all out

Is there anyone that fails

Is there anyone that falls

Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small

Cause when I take a look around

Everybody seems so strong

I know they'll soon discover

That I don't belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay

If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too

So with a painted grin, I play the part again

So everyone will see me the way that I see them

CHORUS

Are we happy plastic people

Under shiny plastic steeples

With walls around our weakness

And smiles to hide our pain

But if the invitation's open

To every heart that has been broken

Maybe then we close the curtain on our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who's been there

Are there any hands to raise

Am I the only one who's traded

In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing

And we know every line by heart

Only when no one is watching

Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free

If I dared to let you see

The truth behind the person

That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open

Or would you walk away

Would the love of Jesus

Be enough to make you stay

CHORUS 2x

But if the invitation's open

To every heart that has been broken

Maybe then we close the curtain on our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone that fails

Is there anyone that falls

Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small

thats a nice song as i looked beyond the words

so i am extremely not happy with some people

who hurt the person closest to me

god why couldnt you just be honest with her

why must you hurt her and make her cry

she was always there for you,loving and nursing your wounds when u had

and all you did to say thanks was sweet talk her,hurt her and make her cry time and again

why can't ypu understand that you were her world and she wanted to see you and then you do something like this

i saw the look on her face when she told me about you all i could do or asked was how she was feeling?

her response quote "like shit la but i have no more tears to cry"

as a person closest to her i felt totally helpless to lifes little downs

but i promised myslef i am gonna do whatever it takes to restore the smile back into her face

she means more to me than anythin or anyone on earth!

so i shall just end here

my thoughts

i am happy(only certain people know why!)

i realised that love hurts alot,we take a risk when we fall in love

then when we get hurt we wanna know why?

why did we put all our time into the relationship just to make it work and now its all down the drain

i remember my first MAJOR crush

he and i was in the same tuttion class and everytime i see him i'll just melt,and get all jammed up,heh

i was always dressing up for tuttion and such a young age

then came sec 3 officially the worst year ever!

why?

i fell for a guy the one who will break my heart to the maximum ever

did i regret meeting him

no!why?

because breaking up with him made me learn alot of things i did not know

then after that relationship failed i was in another one

but by that time it was too late i was even more afraid of relationship in only ended 2 weeks later,

scared of falling in love and being with that person for a long period of time and it ending was the last thing i wanted

so i started taking revenge liking the guys and then breaking up with them and let them hurt

then it hit me

making them hurt to please me makes me feel worst

then i told myself recently that the next relationship that come i'll give it all i can to make it work,becuase its time for me to put a lil bit of love into a person

and hopefully its the one that god choose for me!

i am still happy!!!!

ok i think i forgot the rest of my thoughts *slaps forehead*

SO TILL next time byes!

greetings

so i went back to school YESTERDAY

as on monday i was sick to the core

and i have a lil sms reminding me that my head was not in the game

thanks and sorie.

so i m feeling much better and i have exams tomorrow

which i so aint looking forward to

just something realllyy random

i have been realising that sometimnes things we want and pray so hard to have we dnt get

but things we dnt pray that hard for we get

why?

well in my mind is that God knows what is best for his children

and especially if something we want and other people come saying they'll try and they never do is just a waste of time

i have been through so much lately is has made me a much much more stronger believer that if something is meant to be our we can have it anytime

so far all the things/people i have let go doesn't seem to come back so to me it means

it's not healthy for me and not destined to be mine

sometimes the toughtest choice we have to make is either when matters concerning the heart or friends,familyand even relationships.

i have been throught it all and yet sometime when it fees like i am not gonna survive,in a way i did,and friends that i have really let down,friends that i have even so much hope for lets me down,family that lets me down still i love them all

Failed replationship seem to be following me eveytime or maybe its just me

and what i have seen that God can do is that he can take away the pain that we feel,change our hearts,heal us from the burden/grudge that we hold

i experienced that,and i m preaching what i have experience!

lets see what did i do the whole of today

gelare with martha,

gossip session with souher online and martha

heart to heart talk with martha by the pool and in my room chilling with the aircon on

on the bed

me hitting her on the head with pillows!

i miss having those kinda sessions with her.

martha

no matter what i'll be here for you with 3 boxes of tissue and lets watch korean dramas together!!!!!!lol

dnt let him hurt u more that he has already!

souher go get 'em digits babes!

hanis welcome home(make sure u had enought holiday and we've gotta get cracking!)

u noe what i mean

hung out in town totally pack
whatelse do i expect last day before the raise of the GST

met the bestie and bird at like 4.30

had lunch at Far east

then walked to centerpoint then OG

walked to borders STARBUCKS

had Daily reviews.yay-ness

then we walked around aimlessly

saw my friend and

,BR>

souher and bird bumped into alot of siglapians!

and one of them was

"souher ar?*woot woot*

leaving his girlfriend confused i think

hahhahahahah!

i am a very happy person!

i love my Nicole Richie to bits!