WELL I WAS SURFING THRU THE NET AND I SAW SOUHER'S PICTURE ON MYSPACE USING A POLO RALPH LAUREN SO I WENT TO THE WEBSITE: www.ralphlauren.com.sg
here's what really got my eyes

my fav....souher has it

the halter dress

the purfect sunnies

I WANT THAT!!!!!!

thats the hat i lurve!!!!

tank top lurve!!!!!

like HERMES BUT RALPH LAUREN

sometimes i wonder why do i fall for someone easily?????

and most of the time i wonder how can a person say "i love you"and not mean it???

lately i haven't been feeling like myself

and also feel like i m letting all of my friends down

i know i m not perfect

i m trying to a better person

it seems like a long route

but i hope i get there soon

i miss the old me

the one who doesn't have to stay sorry at herself for anything bad that happens

and no matter what always have a smile on her face

well that's what i was and no matter what want to be all about

well guys that's all i gotta say

besides

well here are some pictures taken on friday night with the whole gang

Souher

Hanis

Fin

Mashaa

Hafza and

Myself

first and formost we(souher hanis and myself) met and Aljunied Mrt

then we headed down to bugis to meet mashas,fin and hafza

so then we went to the cafe at bugis street for dinner

and we had a surpirise for mashas

since we could not celebrate her birthday

we decided on a belated b-dae celebration

then we walked ard and den had a crazy idea to head to

ARAB STREET

so we walked then

and found a nice place for sheesa-ing

we stayed there till about

10 den we went our seperate ways

dinner time

the birthday girl in yellow

me.mashas,fin,souher and hanis

(hafza's the photographer)

mashas and me

me and souher

pout-ing faces

head resting

well to everybody who was there for me

this morning at lyke 1 or 2 plus in the morning

thank you guys alot

i m still feeling very numb

why??????(thats the only question in my mind)

what did i ever do to deserve what i got?????

what happen yesterday really left a mark in my heart

so now all i have to do is be strong

thanks

why do i get hurt?????

maybe its because

i've been praying to get what i want so much that

maybe i have been praying wrongly

or it's just no meant to be

no matter what when the next guy that comes around

will still have the benefit

on a much lighter note

i m so efffffing happy that is not true

i saw so many cute guys

OMgoodness!!!!!!

i m going gaga

ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!

well

ooh oh

im not missing you

mmmm

been through just about everything

that i could go through when it comes to relationships

dont know what i was missing or why i aint listen

when i told myself that was it

but here i go hurt again cause

of my curiosity now that its over

what else could it bebesides a cheat

i made a promise

never to settle (why didnt i keep it)

cos i needed the heart break

cryin and cheatin the fooling around

but im not missing ui

m not going through emotions

waiting and a hoping u call me

im not missing u

u mighta had me open

but i must be goin because

i got lots to do

i know im usually hanging on

i used to hate to see u go

but this time its different

i dont even feel the distance

im not missing im not missing u

its a shame in a way

cos i feel that i may not

ever fine the right one for me

did i leave him this year

i didnt find a face

oh

will my true love ever be

how could i go on a search again

when i know what the end will be

what good is love when it keeps on hurting me

i made a promise

never to settle (why didnt i keep it)

cos i needed the heart break

cryin and cheatin the fooling around

but im not missing u

im not going through emotions

waiting and a hoping u call me

i'm not missing u

u mighta had me open

but i must be goin because

i got lots to do

i know im usually hanging on

i used to hate to see u go

but this time its different
dont even feel the distance

im not missing im not missing u

im not going through emotions

waiting and a hoping u call me

im not missing u

u mighta had me open

but i must be goin because

i got lots to do

i know im usually hanging on

i used to hate to see u go

but this time its different

i dont even feel the distance

im not missing im not missing u

no i cant be with u cos

im scared felt like i was falling when u left me

i cant keep going through life

unaware of what im missing

or the person that i could be

loves good when its right

bad when its left

in ur memory all the time anytime

i guess love will be nice for someone

this is life

im not missing u

im not going through emotions

waiting and a hoping u call me

im not missing uu mighta had me open

but i must be goin because

i got lots to do

i know im usually hanging on

i used to hate to see u go

but this time its different

i dont even feel the distancei

m not missing im not missing u

im not going through emotions

waiting and a hoping u call me(knocking at my door)

u mighta had me open (ay oh)

but i must be goin because(this is the best day of my life)

i know im usually hanging on

i used to hate to see u gobut this time its different

i dont even feel the distance

im not missing im not missing u (im not missing, wooooh yea, im not missin u, no baby, im not missin u)

feeling hurt and scared for now...

well here i am on a Wednesday Morning blogging
first and fromost i would like to say that

My love, I have tried with all my being
to grasp a form comparable to thine own,

but nothing seems worthy;

I know now why Shakespeare could not

compare his love to a summer’s day.

It would be a crime to denounce the beauty

of such a creature as thee,

to simply cast away the precision

God had placed in forging you.

Each facet of your being

whether it physical or spiritualis an ensnarementf

rom which there is no release.

But I do not wish release.I

wish to stay entrapped forever.

With you for all eternity.

Our hearts, always as one.

- Anthony Kolos -

this poem i sdedicated to my sweets Souher

Huns let's enjoy and party

no decisions to be made yet

well here's what i have been up too during the weekend

continuatiuon of the last entry

woke up headed down to tampines mall to change my stayhub box with my sister

den had Long John Silvers Combo 3 double fries to eat

den walked ard and headed home

in the bus there were these two guys laughing like total gurls

so my sister and i laughed at them and their reaction was total blur-ness

so then we headed to my grandmothers house as it was her birthday

had dinner

then the cousins and i recaptured all the memories we had in my grams house

which was so fun and sad at the same time

so the cousins kinda know about the guy that i lyke

hahahhahha

they kinda like gave him approval

yay!!!

so then we took as many photos as we could

and then my aunts from america and hong kong called to wish my grams

so that was it...

Photos will be posted later

woke up headed to church then went to bedok to get soome stuff

went to frankle to have lunch

headed home

and at ard 3.30 meet souher at Paya Lebar then mrt-ed to aljunied

waited for hanis for about half an hour

until we couldn't feel our butts

the she finally arrived then headed to city hall

had early dinner

the off th esplanade for the overdrive thing

picturs will be posted later

Souher.....after cheese muffin

she saw the IMFs guys

wade Robson was her man

walking to city hall mrt

it was t oo dark but i loved it anyway

i hung out yesterday with hanis and souher
really had a great tyme with 'em girls
we windowed shopped and we are now labeled the
"blackwhitebrown"gerls
long story
well was fun esp when we were at the forum coffeebean chlling and
then these group of people kept walking up and down
first there was one then there were 3
it was lyke they went into a multiplying machine of some sort
well we wanted to take pictures
3 of us together
but souher was superstitious
about taking 3-people picture
so here are some pictures

gothic hanis

she either saw a cute or funneh looking whiteguy

souher using "scarf"
indulging in some conversation well i snap


credits to hanis

high on sugarrrrrrr

the life of the souher and hanis

hilton hotel babeh!!!!!!

well thats alll folks

until nxt tyme

here i m back after so long

*shakes head*

well my exams are finally over

so now i have 5 weeks of fun laughter peace and joy ahead of me

which i m totally looking forward to

ok so here's what i have been up too

i attended hanis sisters wedding on sep 3

it was so much fun

then the next week i had exams already

so yeah i have pretty much been studying alot

and still had time to meet up with my new lovely friends

and i definately had so much fun you guys

i love u guys

i seriously cnt wait and see what happens tomorrow

well thats pretty much all until next time

byes