well here i am on a sunday night

i received some really sad news yesterday,

and i cried,alot

i do not feel like exaggerating on the matter

and i guess he doesnt like me no more and maybe i deserved it

but i still like him

how how?

maybe what someone said about me is true

a pretty face with no brains

and the whole issue about being thin

is so ridiculously disturbin that i think it's getting to everybody

me included and especially yesterday

but now i am happy with the way i am!

so

PRAISE THE LORD!

i so hope that souher my bestie will get better please my love

you are in my prayers,

i really really love you!

thats all folks!

TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN

so lets see

what do i have to say

man you guys use to be in love

blame it on her?hah!

both are to be blame for what happen

so please do not over exaggerate la

people sms you twice all of a sudden become millions of times

who you kidding?must be yourself.haha

and i think using a 12-year old kid in ur manipulative ways to get rid of something or someone

is so pathetic!

how low can you possibly go!

look at yourself in the mirror and tell us who is the loser now?

ya you can rap

so what!

you wanna fit the bill of also being

a rapper with Z-E-R-O personality

on a scale of 1-10

your a MINUS 1

its your life.

so don't pull my friend into it

and also another thing you don't like this person A

so why are you now on her side?

i know my friend longer than you have and guess what

she'd agree with me

when i say a small bike you want her to naik

please dont bullshit yourself la

and besides i was there when she borrowed you the phone

which you didn't have money to buy

so please save all the lies and deception for your life and your friends

and borrowing money from you

i guess you are really weird and your comprehension of english is really bad

no body gives a shit if your a virgin

why air your dirtyy laundry out for the whole world to see

dont you have pride or any diginity?

i guess not

so this post is filled with alot of hatred and anger but can you seriously blame me

so thats all!

so here are the people that means the world,the sun,the moon and the earth to me!!

crazyness of the sisters!

i'll be you support

hello hello!

so it tuesday

and i just got home

i so cnt wait till friday i wanna know

whats happening

i amd hanging out with my friends on friday

breaking fast with them

so i was reading hanis blog and when she said no wade robson

i was laughing*evil smiles*(inside joke,only hanis souher and i know)

so i wanna see him again

he smsed me

which i was so happy la and i was high the whole day

hahahhah!!!i want it to happen again!!!

so moving on*the way babes says it*

i love souher totally more than any materialistic thing in the world

even if she was on the moon and i was on earth i'd still love her like mac and cheese

honestly we have been thru so much this 1 faaboulous year!

and it made me realise that true friends stab you n the front

meaning

they are staright up with you

no behind-the-back-bitching

and those mumbo jumbo bumbo stuff!!!

and i was reading souher's blog and i bawled like a lil hungry baby!

i just realised that i wanna like him and "pek" keeps comming back

you know we are friends

but then my mommy said that maybe just mix around in the same crowd

wheather i like him he likes me!

who cares!lets not spoil anything just hang out and have a bal!!!

i do not want a lie or player as my bf

just a simple guy who is sincere and honest

it that so hard!

well thats all!!!

well so i think i have a reply not a certain one but a good

possibility

but i still kinda have a gut feeling otherwise

so what do i do now?

well i am trying to find out whats the reality

i do hope that its what i wanna hear

but hey if its not then ohwellls

i can't say i didnt try

here's something i think really applies to everyone

"its healthier to see the good points of others,than to analyze our own bad points"

in so many different situations this is what we as humans normally do!

to all those people who are dwelling on lifes difficult situations

doesnt matter if i know you or not

chin up!its just another bumpy road

it'll be smooth soon!

thats all

thanks for stopping bye

hey lovely people!

so i m still stoning form last night and all

so maybe what happen was gods way of telling me that i was better off

and ya a friend someone i barely know had my back in this matter which was kind of shocking

and the bestfriend had my back and really touched me with her comment!

my love goes out ti everybody reading this

and to my brother you are the best and the one and only big brother of mine,your advice yesterday gave me hope till the message

well like you said brian

"next!"

confusion!

but why?

i like him but how???he know alot of people i know!

1 year and now we ended as friends

better or not i dnt care

how many more time do i have to go thru is before realising that it's a waste of time

i am moving on,not because i am tired but because it the better thing to do!

if u want him fine,i hope u guys are happy!u have my blessing just dnt come crawling when u get burned!

i wished we could rekindle the times we had but on a contarary we never can and never will

i am moving on,my brother gave me the thumbs up,i hope he will too!!!i so cant stop thinking about him!!!

well that all!

exit stage right!

happy 365 Souher!

finally an update

we finally reached 1 year!

here is to many more babycakes!

i am always here!

so these days i realised who my thru friends are and some are just associates are

and yes i have finally realise i actually do suck at teamwork.

wel thats all i can say now!

so after a year long of loving,anger and a whloe lotta things

i have finally come to a conclusion that

i love you but i guess we are drifting apart too many things to little time

so for now

i'll let you have as much time as u need!

thats all!