Greeting.
So how have all of you all been?


I have been pretty ok of late, just some of my afternoon ranting, a lot of things and feelings that I just have to get off my chest,
Of late I can’t help but feel that life is just passing me by and I am not making the best of it all, I damn bloody well think its about time I take things into my own hands and change certain parts of my life, only a few of my friends will know what those changes are and Hanis you and me we got to change a shit lot of stuff too…
You know what I mean


We aren’t 16 anymore babe, we’re turning 21 soon and there is so much we have to do and not so much time left, we been through so many rough patches in our lives and even more being friends. But look at us now, growing up working and all that jazz, damn I want to go back to those care free days,


So getting back to what I was saying in the beginning,
ever feel like you’re not appreciated?
To me sometimes I try and not let the little things get to me but then again doesn’t it depend on who the person that is saying or doing that little thing is to me?
There are days when all I want to do is to stay in bed. Why? It’s a familiar place so warm and safe. It’s the same that day when I was super bloody bored at home, so I headed to the besties house and chilled we watched a movie and then the besties rents’ went out so we had the whole house to ourselves munching away
As weird as it was, we felt like we were living on our own and together only thing missing was our walk-in-wardrobe and my sister


Well that’s all I can kinda think about right now.

here's a peek into our home

our living room

our walk in wardrobe

my sister room

hanis bedroom

and lastly my room

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Wake up to a sunny day, not a cloud up in the sky, Then it starts to rain, my defenses hit the ground

And they shatter all around, so open and exposed

I found strength in the struggle, Face to face with my trouble

When you're broken in a million little pieces

And you're trying but you can't hold on anymore

Every tear falls down for a reason

Don't you stop believing in yourself

When you're broken

Little girl don't be so blue, I know what you're going through

Don't let it beat you up, Hitting walls and getting scars

Only makes you who you are

Only makes you who you are

No matter how much your heart is aching

There is beauty in the breaking

If I could have just one wish,I would wish to wake up everydayto the sound of your breath on my neck,the warmth of your lips on my cheek,the touch of your fingers on my skin,and the feel of your heart beating with mine...

Knowing that I could never find that feelingwith anyone other than you.

Everybody's trying to tell me somethin' All about the way to live my life

I don't wanna be nobody's prisoner,chained and sittin' on a couch until I die

Tryin' desperately to be somebody, an independant personality

You're not exactly rollin' the red carpet I've learned I have to fight to be free

I just want to be free to be a woman

Free to do what I choose

Free to feel the way I want and change my attitude, Free to be a woman

Free to have a plan,Free to find the best in life and be all that I can

I don't want no artificial sweetners, I'm lookin' for a man to feed me limes

If you want to check out my body, Well first just show an interest in my mind

What hurts the most,was being so close

And having so much to say,and watching you walk away

And never knowing,what could have been

And not seeing that loving you,is what I was tryin’ to do

Oh You gave me a reason

You told me that I'll always be yours

Oh You are my desire

My heart is so on fire for you

I can't stop loving you,Loving you, Cause I don't wanna end up

In your rear view

Wanna be someone you could turn to, I never wanna lose you

No, there's nothing I won't do

So I'll watch you like a movie

I'll sing you like a song

Read you like a story

If it takes me all night long

Keep you like a secretI'll tell you like a joke

It's true

That I'll love youLike I always do

good morning lovelies

time check: 08.45, and i am in the office shopping online

these are what i wanna get!boyfriend jeans, fedora hats, raybans and a whole lotta others.....

hopefully this weekend i have a lil time for shoppin'

any takers?

on a more serious note.

my life has always been about pleasing people especially my family

and yesterday when i talked to my mum and when the tears came i didn't know that i was this affected about alot of things..so i just walked away.

betrayal and back-stabbing were some of those things.sometimes i wonder why even bother?then it hits me

i do the things i do because i want to not because i wanna gain credit

and like i said how many more times am i gonna have to give them chances,but i do because if i don't forgive no ones gonna forgive me in the future.

i wanna re-do saturday all over again!!!

*winks winks*

yay the weekends are here again

i am gonna enjoy every moment!!!

so here's an update on whats happening with me

life:

in general its all good thankfully

works been hectic

friends are also busy and we don't meet as much as we'd like too

but what to do

family:

all are alive and kicking and enjoying life

everything else will happen when it does.

well tata